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Suck my dick [27 Jan 2006|01:55pm]
[ mood | agggresive?..wtf ]



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[25 Dec 2005|02:14pm]
I have fucking tears filling up in my eyes.

I cant read anymore.
I'll just die if i get another though in my head of someone other than me with you.

But then again.. they are just thoughts.. But thats all i have when it comes down to finding out what you're all about.

>< Is that what you call a getaway.. Tell me what you got away with, because i've seen more spine in jelly-fish, seen more guts in eleven year old kids. >
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Fuck you. <3 [23 Dec 2005|09:40pm]
[ mood | Giddy Haha..(inside joke..) ]


I got a new phone. All that I can say is... I'm not going to let anything happen to it. I allready have so many badass pictures on it!

When to El Jaro with my mom, my aunt, and my dad. While they were waiting for my aunt to show up i went and did a little christmas shoping for my bestfriend. Since it would only be the right thing for me to do after what he got me. I got him a 45$ beanie from some place called sun & ski, or whatever.

Went to starbucks- Had some amazing coffee. (by myself)


On the way home, desided to go to terri and dougs- Just chillin here probably till morning or sometime around then.

Merry christmas AND WHAT-NOT<3

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DRE BROKE UP WITH BURTO?! hahahaha who would have thought.. [19 Dec 2005|08:30pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

Somethings (most of everything) needs to change. I'm not as unaware as i may seem to be at times..

I'm standing on a bridge.
(in this town that i live in as a kid, with my love and my mother.)

And then that bridge disappears..
And I'm standing on air.

With nothing holding me,
Except this one knotted piece of rope,
The one that I'm relying on..

So, I just hang like a star..

Fucking glow in the dark.

For all those starving eyes to see..

Like the ones we've wished on.

Well now I'm confused..
Is this death really you,
Do these dreams have any meaning..

No, no. I think its more like a ghost that's been following us both,
Something more like a feeling.

This is me with the words on the tip of my tounge -remind me not to ever act this way again- *This is you trying hard to make sure that you're seen with a girl on your arm and your heart on your sleeve.


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Are the things you say; said for my ears to hear? or am i just hearing them for my own good. [17 Nov 2005|08:05pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I've been crawling on my belly,

clearing out what could have been,

I've been wallowing in my own chaotic,

and insecure dellusions.

I wanna feel the change consume me,

feel the outside turning in.

I wanna feel the metamorphosis,

and cleansisng out I've endured within.

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[10 Nov 2005|08:29pm]
[ mood | Give me a chance... ]

I get to see you soon. I can't wait, time feels like it's standing still when you're not around. But when you do come around everything will be better for me.

(Your lipstick-his collar.. Dont bother to explian angel i know exactly what's going on. )
When everything you get is exactly what you wanted. Would you rather my finger on the trigger or me face down on your floor..
The only thing i regret is i never let you hold me back.
How about im outside of your window, looking in at the details (they're covered)
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens, i know you well enough to know you never loved me. Just need to keep you in mind as somthing larger than life...

This is me with the words on the tip of my tounge and my eye though the scope down the barrel of a gun, remind me not to ever act this way again- This is you trying hard to make sure that you're seen with a girl on your arm and your heart on your sleeve. Remind me not to ever think of you again.

Dont hold your breath cause you'll only make things worse.


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I dont know. [31 Oct 2005|08:26pm]
So i have read some interresting shit tonight. Wish i hadn't. But it did all aswer a bunch of questions i needed answers for.
Feel like crying right now. Thank you, babe.
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[22 Oct 2005|10:53pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

So i see you have yourself a new one to love.
This fact hit me hard in the chest, Its a feeling i have not felt in a while; a feeling i know best.

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[16 Oct 2005|10:18am]
[ mood | blank ]

I hate it when i get jelous! And that is exactly what i am.

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[25 Jul 2005|06:11am]
its like, 6:11 in the morning, i've been awake all night because ive been in the hospital at my camp. and i slept all day yesterday so im not tired right now. ive just been hanging out with Med. staff all night. My friend Stone (a counselor) is awesome, details later. lol.
Cant say anything about it incase they go back to this site later to see what i was doing.

any way, i just wanted to say hey to everyone, cause its been about a month since ive been in contact with anyone. i love you guys.
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[09 Jul 2005|04:08pm]
Im at a holiday inn right now, its so fucking boring.


Some one call me or something.
1210 872 6429
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[17 Jun 2005|09:11am]
Im at jordans house right now, my mom is leting me hang out with her, finaly! on next monday we've been together for 4 months. I love her SO much!
She found a baby kitty next to her house, i think we named it stilleto. thats about all thats going on.
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[21 May 2005|06:33pm]
Im at Jordans friend Randylls house. Later were going to her sisters house..probably going to shroom. every one whos reading this should comment.

i love all yall. :)
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[06 Apr 2005|01:10pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Yeah.. so..

My girlfriend came over yesterday while my mom was at work and my mom came home and we were lieing on my bed with our arms around each other and my mom came in and now i have no cell phone.. sucks.. I think i might be going to church tonight im not sure though.. my mom said yes last night then no today. I dunno. Im going shoe shopping tomorrow i need some type of high heel.. somthing cute.. not to dressy.. yet sexy.

My mom is real over protective.. i wish she could understand that i dont do the things i do because i dont know.. i do them because i dont really think befor i do them.. and sometimes i just do them because its whats known to me.. and of me.

whatever.. i dunno. If you want to talk to me call 210 865 8883

K thanks bye.

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[14 Mar 2005|12:23pm]
[ mood | bah sha sha sha tah ]

Im at Brookes house right now. I got here last night, and im staying untill tuesday. No one would beleave the shit i had to do to get here.. (We-- had to do).
I found 85$ yesterday in a pear of black shorts that i used to wear.. i miss wearing them, but i feel to boy-ish in them. Im dieing my hair today, Dark brown with chunks of red. It'll look cute.
Evan is in the next room, and i can hear him singing..

I think thats it..

I miss so many people.. its crazy. We should all get together and have a party, or just go out to eat at like.. IHOP. anyone up for it?

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